Theodoros Chan.
15 June 1994


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TCSFY♥

aS yOu nOe, RiChE, fIoNn aNd wEiyU cAmE mIe hOuSe... wEiyU wAs lAsT mInUtE dEn cUm wAn... sO... wAtS uP mAn... hAhAs... rIcHe dIDn'T bLaNjA mAcDoNaLd bUt 2 for 1 pIzZa!!! hAhAs... sHiOk eHs... hAhAs... eAt uNtIl sO fUll... hAhAs... nOw dEy sTiLL aT mIe hOmE... I gUeSs dEy aRe gOiNg hOmE aT 6.30pm oR mAyBe eArlIeR... wAntEd tO cAll hIm bUt hE sLeEpInG sO dUn dIstUrB hIm... hAhAs... lEt hIm sLeEp... sO wOn'T gEt sIcK... hAhAs... oK lAhS... nOtHinG mUcH tO wRitE sO eNd hErE wOhS... bUaiiS bUaiis! tAkE cArEs! mUacKs... ~ sPeCiAl oNe tO hiM... mWaRkZ!!! hAhAS back to top?

tOk tO hIm oN tHe pHoNe lAsT nItE... hE sAy sO lOnG nEvEr hEaR yOuR vOicE... hAhAs... dEn hE wAtChInG wReStlinG... dEn mSg lOhS... hE aSk mIe sLeEp eArlY lAtEr sIcK... dEn I dAmN hAppi lIaO lOhS... bUt dEn hAb a dReAm.... aSo aBt hIm lOhS... I dReAm dAt wE kEeP oN mEsSaGiNg lAhS... dEn I cOnfEsS tO hIm dAt I reAlli lOvE hIm... hE nEvEr rEplY... dEn nExT dAy... uNdEr tHe rAin aT tHe pLaYgRoUnD, I wAtInG fOr mIe fWeN... dEn sAw hIm... (lAsT tYm sEe mIe owAeS sAy hIe) bUt hE jUs wAlKeD pAsS mIe lyK I iNvIsIbLe.... dEn I vErI sAdD.... dEn I wOkE uP cUs I dUn wAn dIs dReAm tO cUm tRuE.... I reALli mEaN iT... I dUn wAn dIs tO hApPeN iN rEaL lIfE... cUs I dUn wAn tO lOsE hIm... eVeN aS bRotHeR... rEaLLi.... aRhS... dUn wAn tOk aBt tHe dReAm lIaO aRhS.... lAtEr fIoNN aNd rIcHe cUmIn mIe hOuSe tO plAy... rIcHe bLaNjA mAcDoNaLd... dEliVeRy.... sHiOk arhS... aSk wHeThEr hE wAn cUm wIt hIs bRo aNoT... bUt I gUeSs hE wOn'T cUm wAn aRhS.... lAtEr hE tInK cHilDiSh... hAhAs... dEn wE pLaYpLaY lOhS... hAHAs.... oK lAhS... eNd hErEx... bUaiiS bUaiis! tAkE cAreS!!! mUaCkS ~ mUaCks tO mIe eX oNliEs back to top?

tOdAe tOoK nEoPrInT 2 tImEs... oNe iS wItH tHe bOiS aNd oNe iS wItHoUt tHe bOiS... hAhAs... toOk nEopRinT aT lOt1 lAhS... oF cOuRsE mAhS... hAhAs... vErI fUnN lOhS... dEn nOt mUcH hEnSeM bOiS aT lOt1 tOdAe... aLL... ~bLuEcKs!~ hMmM... sEe wHo gO kAyYS:
GuRlS: kAvIs, gAbRieLLe, fIoNn, tHeO[mE]
bOyS: rIcHe, yIwEI, sIn hAu

hMmM... nEoPrInT wIthOuT tHe bOiS bUt jUz wIt yIwEi iS wE aLL fOrK oUt tHe mOnEy... dEn wItH tHe bOiS rIcHe fOrK oUt aLL... nOw dAtS a cOoL dUdE! I rEaLLi eNvY gAlS wHo cOuLd tAkE nEoPrInT wItH tHeIr bOi lOhS... sO gOoD... wEll, I'm jUz wAiTiN fOr sUm1[boi] tO tAkE wIt mIe aLoNe oNlIeS.... sO cAn pUt iN mIe nEoPrInT bOoK... cUrReNt wEaThEr nOw iS rAiNy... rEaLLi wAnNa wAlK iN tHe rAin... cUs fEeL lIkE cRyInG aNd aT tHe sAmE tImE fAll sIcK... cUs nOthInG tO dO mAhS... I gUeSs 2 bOiS fIgHtInG fOr mIe lOr... dIaO... oNe cOnfEsS tO mIe bY pHoNe aNotHer bY e-mAiL... dIaO... bOtH I aSo dUn lYk... dEn aSo gOt aNotHeR oNe cOnfEsS bY pHoNe{cAll}~iT tAkEs aLoT oF cOuRaGe tO cOnFeSs aNd aSk fOr sTeAd tO tHe oPpOsItE gEndEr wHoM yOu lOvE... rEaSoNs: pAisEh, sCaReD(rEjEcT)... I nOe... aDmIrEd a bOi sInCe P5... bUt tIll dIs yEaR dEn hE aSkeD fOr sTeAd... bUt bRokE uP cUs hE tInKs I'm oWaEs wIt mIe gOdbRoS, nOt wIt hIm...bUt I nOe I aDmIrEd hIm dId pAiD tHrOuGh... nOw wAitInG fOr 21sT dEcEmBeR tO cUm... wAitInG fOr mIe sEcOndAry sChOOl... cOuLdn'T tHe dAe cUm fAsT sO I cOulD mSg tO mIe eX??? rEaLLi fEeL lYk mSgInG hIm bUt I'M aFrAiD dAt hE sAy hE bUsY oR wAd dUn wAn mSg mE... sO wAitInG fOr tHe rIgHt tImE lOhS.... hAhAs.... tIll hErE lAhS... bUaiis bUaiis! tAkE cArEs!! mUaCkZ ~ sPeCiAl oNe fOr mIe eX... mWaRkZ back to top?

sO bOrInG... hE oNlInEd tOdAe... gAvE mIe hIs nUmBer... bUt I dUnOe wAd tO mSg hIm... hAiSh... jUs tInKiNg wHetHeR I sHoUlD gIvE hIm a cAll oR wAd... cAll hIm aSo dUnOe wAd tO tOk... hAiSh... tOmOrRoW gOiNg lot1... tAkE sUmOrE nEoPrInT... hAhAs... I jUs wAn tAkE nEoPrInT wIt hIm oNli aSo cANNot.. hAisH... bUt aT lEaSt I gOt hIs pHoTo.... hAhAs.... mUs rEmEmbEr hIm fOr eTeRniTy... hAhAS.... oK lAHs... tOdAe aSo nOt bAd... uSed cOmpUtEr fOr 1 wHoLe dAy... tImE pAsS sO fAsT... hAhAs... oK lAhS... iF aNytHiNg jUz rInG mE uP... 24/7... hAhAs... kkIeS... tAKe cArEs!!! bUaiis bUaiis! mUaCkS... mUaCks tO miE eX.... =D back to top?

I wAlK a lOnEly wOrLd... cHeYcHey... nAlA... pLaYpLaY oNlI lAhS... hAhAs.. I rEjEcTeD 3 bOiS cUs oF hIm... hAiSh... nEvErmInD... wEAtHeR nOw iS dRiZzLiNg... dEsCrIbEs mIe fEeLiNGS... back to top?

wEnT tO sChOOl tOdAe tO gIvE mIe oPtIoN fOrM... rEaLLi gOnnA mIz HKPS... rEaLLi lEfT sChOOl wIt nO rEgReTz... hAhAs... bUt rEaLLi gOnnA mIz mIe fWeNs aNd mIe bEsT tEaChErS... hAhaS... aNd oF cOuRsE mIe P6eS fWeNs... hAhAs... tHe wEaThEr nOw iS rAiNy... aNd fElT cOlD aNd sAd... nOtHiNg tO dO... BORING! 'bOrEdnEsS iS kIlLinG mE'
hAiSh... jUs kEeP oN gOiN tHrOuGh mIe fRiEndStEr'S fWeNs... aNd oF cOuRSe wAiTiN fOr pPl tO oNlInE sO cAn cHaT jUz tO pAsS tImE... hAhAs... bUt nO-oNe... dIaO... sO tOk tO tHe bLoG mAn... hAhAs... gOt bOis wAn sTeAD bUt I rEjEcT aLL(3)... hAisH... cUs oF mIe eX... I'M nOt blaMiN' mIe eX kAy... iTs jUz tOo dIfFiCuLt tO fOrgEt hIm... dAtS aLL... tHe rEaSoN wHy I cAn'T fOrgEt hIm cUs I sTiLL lOvE hIm... iF I dUn lOvE hIm, I wOulD hAb fOrgOtTeN hIm lOnG lOnG aGo... I gUeSs tHe tImE wHeN I rEaLLi fOuNd a nEw bOi wHo cOulD gIvE mE eVeRytHinG wHiCh a bOi sHoUlD gIvE a gAl... lYk hOw mIe eX tReAt mIe bUt nOt bReAk lAhs.. oF cOuRSe... hAhAs.... nOw dUnOe wAd tUh wRiTe... hAiSh... lEt mE tInK aRhS... gOt nOthinG tO dO... jUs cHeCkIn out fWeNs' fWeNS... hAhAs... aDd mOrE fWeNs gEt mOrE TeStI... HaHaS... Ok LaHs... EnD HeREs... BuAIIs bUaIIS tAkE cArEs!!! mUaCks! back to top?

wEnT tO bUkIt bAtOk fOr diNNeR aNd wAs dRiZzLiNg... I gUeSs iT wAs jUs aBiT sO I aTe uNdEr tHe rAin wItH mY mUm'S pErMisSioN... sO sHiOk... eAt hOt hOt tHiNgS dEn iN sUcH a cOlD wEaTHeR... sO sHiOk... I dId aTe sTeAmbOaT uNdEr tHe rAIn wIt mY wHoLe fAmIlY... aNd I nOe iT wAs sHiOk.. aFtEr eAtInG... lIsTeN tO sOnG ~ mY hAppY eNdInG aNd tHoUgHt aBt hIm... dA fUn tImEs I hAd wIt hIm aNd aLL tHe mEsSaGeS hE sEnT mE... hAIx... rEaLLi mIz hIm... aNd I jUs wAn hIm tO nOe I rEaLLi tRuSt hIm mOrE dEn mYsElF aNd rEaLLi eVeN lOvE hIm mOrE dEn mYsElF... bUt dIdn'T sEe hIm dIz fEw dAyS aNd dIDn'T e-MaIl hIm... hAIX... hOpE hE nOeS dAt I rEaLLi rEaLLi rEaLLi tRuSt aNd lOvE hIm mOrE dEn mYsElF... hOpE hE cAn uNdErStaNd mIe fEeLiNgS fOr hIm... oK lAhS... mIe wAn gO fWeNsTeR... bUaiiS bUaiiS! tAkE cArEs! mUaCkS! back to top?

nOtHiNg tO dO... dIdN't wEnT oUt tOdAe... sO bOrInG!!!
'bOrEdnEsS iS kIllInG mE'
hAhAs... hErWaN tHoUgHt oF iT... rEaLLi cReAtIvE oF hIm... hAhAs... sO bOrInG... aLL I cOuLd dO wAs tO wAiT fOr tAlKatIvE pPl oN mSn aNd cHaT wit mIe... sO bOrInG... tAkE pIcTuReS aSo vErI pAiSeh... hAish... sO bOrInG... nEvErmInD aRhS... mAyBe cAn dAydReAm aBt eX... aHs... dUn wAn wRiTe ... lAzY aRhS.... wAn gO dAydReAm lOhS!!! bUaiis bUaiis! lOvE hIm mOrE dEn mYsElF... back to top?

lAsT nItE dIdN't sLeEp tHe wHoLe dAy sIaL... fRoM lAsT nItE aT 7.30pm aLL tHe wAy tO nExT dAy wHiCh iS tOdAy'S mOrNiNg aT 9aM... gOt mOvIe mArAtHoN... wAtCh mOvIeS aLL tHe wAy...I dUn rEaLLi uNdErStAnD wAd tHe mOvIeS aRe tRyInG tO pAsS tHe mEsSaGe... dEn fIrsT-tWo mOvIeS gOt vUlgArItIeS sO tHeY sToP tHe mOvIe aNd cHaNgE... dEn nExT tWo nOt bAd bUt dUn uNdErStAnD... vErI cOlD sIaL iNsIdE tHe cHaPel... hAhAs... dEn wEnT tO sEe sTaRs - tHe mOSt cOmfOrTaBlE wAy: lYiNG dOwN... sO nIcE... I mAdE mY wIsH uPoN iT... hAhAs.... wEll iF yOu nOe mIe rEaLLi wELL, yOu sHouLd nOe wAd I wAn rYtE? hAhAs... oH yA... mAdE uP mY mInD oF sEcOnDaRy sChOoLs lIaO...

1st: Swiss Cottage
2nd: Chua Chu Kang
3rd: Bukit Panjang Govt. High (nOt I cHoOse.. mY mUm dId - mY sCoRe cOuLdn't eVeN gEt iN loR!!!)
4th: Kranji
5th: Unity
6th: Bukit Batok

tHe fIrSt cHoiCe iS I cHoOsE wAn... tHe rEsT aLL mY mUm fOrCe mE pUt wAN iF nOt I aSo dUnwAn... I wAn pUt dUnEaRN iN.... bUt I cAnNoT lOr... dIaO... sO sLeEpY.... sO bOrING!!!! nEvEr gEt tO tOk tO hIm aNd I gUeSs wIll nOt bE aBlE tO sEe hIm... rEaLLi hAtE tO lEaVe... I mIz aLL mIe sIsTaZ... mIe bRoX... back to top?

yAy!!! I pAsS!!! I mAdE iT!!! pReLiM iS 150 dEn PSLE iS 185... yAy!!!! sO hApPi... tO mAkE mE mOrE hApPi iS tO sEe 'him' tOdAe... hE sAw mE tAkE mY rEsUlTs, I qUiCkLy gO uP tO sEe gAb aLL mAhS dEn hE aSo dErE... sO hE aSk mE hOw mUcH I gOt lArHs... dEn I tOlD hIm I gO NA... hE pUt tHuMbS uP... hAhAs... sO hApPi... wItHoUt hIm I aSo wOulDn'T hAb pAsS... eVeRytYm hE wIll sTuDy aNd I sTuDy dEn wE tOk tO eAcH oThEr oN tHe pHonE... hAhAs... rEaLLi lOvE hIm... hAhAs... wAd mAtTeRs nOw iS I lOvE hIm aNd I pAsS mY PSLE!!! I gOt hIgHeR dEn mY cOusIn aNd mY bRoX... hAhAs... I tHoUgHt AmiRuL wOulD gEt hIgHeR dEn mE... bUt I hIgHeR dEn hIm... hE gOt 179... hAhAs... bUt iTs aSo qUiTe gOoD lIaOs... I 185 >>> 3 mOrE mArKs I gEt iNtO eXpReSs lErHs... hAiX... aT lEaSt I gO NA!!! I cAnNoT bElIeVe I mAdE iT!! I thOuGhT I wiLL gO NT... bUt yEs!!! I wEnT NA!!! yEyEy!!! hAhAs... rEaLLi oWe tO mIe bOi, tEaChErS, aNd oF cOuRsE tHe cHuRcH pEoPlE... hAhAs... rEaLLi mIz mIe bOi... hAhAs... rEaLLi wAn tO sAy tHaNk yOu bUt aLL hIs fWeNs dErE sO I dUn dArE... iF nOt I aSo hUg hIm lIaO... hAhAs... rEaLLi lOvE hIm.. hAhaS... mUaCkS mIe dEaR!!! lOvE MRS SOH lOtZ... sHe rEaLLi hElPeD mE.... aNd oF cOuRsE Ms gUaN!!! hAhAs... mUaCkS mIe tEaChErS!!! lOvE yOu aLL!!! mUaCkS yOu aLL!!! mIz yOu aLL!!! I gUeSs I'm gOnNa mEeT nEw fWeNs aNd nEw tEaChErS aNd a wHoLe lOt oF pEoPle!!! mUaCkS!!! back to top?

tOdAe gO cHuRcH fUn sIa... hAhAs... iT wAs dRiZzLiNg oVeR dErE mAhS... dEn mE, gAb aNd fIoNN wEnt tO sEaT uNdEr tHe rAiN oN tHe fLoOr... dEn wE tAkE pHoToS... hAhAs... vErI fUnN... dEn wE pLaYeD tHe wEt hEaD gAmE... hAhAs... sO fUnN... tOdAe sEaT uNdEr tHe rAiN aNd tHoUgHt oF 'him'.. I rEaLLi mIz hIm tOO mUcH... tOmOrRoW hE sEeInG mE tAkE mIe rEsUltS... I rEaLLi lOvE hIm bUt hE jUs tInK I dUn tRuSt hIm.. hOw? mAkE tHe sCar? oK lOrhS... If dIs mAkEs hIm tRuSt mE, I wIll dO iT... I dUn cArE wAd hApPeNs tO mIe hAnD, I jUs wAn tO bE wIt hIm... gOiNg tO dRaW oN mIe pAlM dEn uSe sHaRp pEnCiL tO kEeP oN dRaWinG sO tHe sKiN wIll tEaR dEn bloOd wIll cUm out... dEn dRy dEn kEeP oN pEeLiN uNtIl gOt tHe sCar wIcH sTaYs dErE fOrEvA lOhS... jUs mIz hIm aNd lOvE hIm... mUaCks mY dEaR!!! mIz yOu!!! back to top?

gOiNg cHuRcH laTeR aT 12pM... iF yOu gUyS nIdA cOntAcT mE, cALL mE kAyYS? I wIll bE dErE tO pIcK uP tHe pHoNe cAll... I dUnOe wAd tYm I wIll bE bAcK... mAyBe aRoUnD 4 oR 5pm.. aRoUnD dErE oR mAyBe eArlIeR oR lAtEr lOrS.... If yOu lIvE nEaR tHe cHuRCh dEn yOu cUm aNd fInD mE aRhS... I'm aLwAeS sItTiNg oUtSidE... mAyBe yOu cOulD dROp bY aNd fInD mE? dEn wE chIt-cHaT oUtsIdE tHe cHurCh fOr a wHiLe loR.. cUs I rEaLLi mIz yOu aLL eSpEcIaLLY 'him'... wOulD bE rEaLLy gReAt iF 'he' cOulD dRoP bY aNd tOk tO mE... hAhAs... bUt I dUn eVeN tInK hE wOulD bOtHeR tO rEaD mIe bLoG... 1 mOrE hOuR tO gO!!! wEll... jUs wAnNa tOk tO 'him' aNd sEe 'him'... oK lOrHs... sEe hOw fIrSt lAhS... mAyBe I mAy gEt tO sEe hIm lAtEr? oR mAyBe sEe yOu? wEll I dUnoE... jUs hOpE I gEt tO sEe aLL oF yOu aNd 'him' ... hAhAs... I rEaLLi wAnNa hUg hIm... hAhAs... bUt I nOe iTs jUs a wIsHfUl tHoUgHt.. iF hE cOulD rEaLiSe fOr mE I wOulD bE hApPy tO bE hIs gAl... hAhAs... eVeRydAy iS aBOUt hIm hIm aNd hIm... nO oThEr bOiS iN mY mInD... hAiiIiSsssHHHH... I gUeSs tHe lOvE iS rEaLLi tOO dEEp... gOnNa mAkE a sCaR lAtEr aT tHe cHuRCh... hIs nAmE oN mY pAlM... hAHAs... sEe hOw dEeP iZzIt gOnNa bE.... oK lAhS... I wAn gO gEt rEaDy... aNytHiNg nId gO dRoP bY aT tHe cHuRcH oR cAll mE kAyyS? oK lAhS... tAKE cArEs! bUaiiS buAiis!!! miZ yOu aLL aNd 'him' mUaCkS!!! back to top?

rEaLLi mIzZ hIm tOo mUcH lE... bUt I rEaLLi cAnNoT lEt hIm gO... hOw? hE jUs cAn'T tRuSt mE bAcK... hOw tO mAkE hIm tRuSt mE bAcK? kIll mYsElF? mAke a sCaR aGaIn? I gUeSs mAkInG a sCaR wIt hIs nAmE iS mUcH wOrTh iT... hE cUmIn tO sEe uS tAkE oUr rEsUlTs... aLL I wAn iS tO bE wIt hIm aGaIn fOr tHe rEsT oF mIe lIfE... Is dAt tOo mUcH tO aSk fOr? I rEaLLI dAmN cAnNot lIvE wiThOuT hIm lErS... I tRiEd wiT aLL mY mIgHt tO fOrGet dAt I dId sTeAd wIt hIm bUt mY lOvE fOr hIm iS tOo dEeP... I jUs sUmhOw cAn'T gEt hIm oFf mIe mInD nEitHeR hEaRt... I gUeSs I wIll bE wAiTiN fOr hIm? wEll I nOe I cAn'T gEt hIm oUt mEaNs I sTiLL loVe hIm... I aDmIt lAsT nItE bUt hE dIdn'T sAy anYtHiNg... I gUeSs hE sTiLL wOulDn'T tRuSt mE yEt... aLL I wAnnA tEll hIm iS dAt I rEaLLi lOvE hIm aNd I rEaLLi tRuSt hIm... aNd I wIll bE wAitInG fOr hIm... cUs nO mAtTeR wAd hApPeNs, mY hEaRt wIll nEvEr cHaNgE mY fEeLiNgS fOr hIm... I jUs lOvE hIm tOo mUcH tO lEt hIm gO... aLL I wAn iS tO bE wIt hIm... I cAn'T tAkE iT aNymOrE... I alrEaDy aDmIttEd I sTiLL lOvE yOu bUt wHy cAn'T yOu tRuSt ME? iZzIt dAt dIfFicUlT tO fOrgEt tHe pAsT? I rEaLLi bLaMed mYsElF fOr hAtInG yOu... I tRiEd cAllInG yOu bUt I rEaLLi cAn'T.. I tRiEd e-mAiLiNg yOu bUt I'm jUs aFrIaD yOu wOulNd'T rEaD tHe mAil... sO I jUs hAvE tO eXprEsS mY fEeLiNgS tO mY bloG... I dReAmT dAt yOu wErE wIt mE iN mY rOoM aNd aSkEd fOr sTeAd bAcK... bUt I nOe yOu wOulD nOt gIvE mE a cHaNcE tO lEt mE cHaNgE...I rEaLLi lOvE yOu tOo dEeP... I jUs wAn tO bE wiT yOu aGaIn... I rEaLLi mIz yOu aNd sTill lOvE yOu... back to top?

tOdAe wEnT tO lOt1 wIt sYaKiR, fIoNn, mY bRo aNd mE... fIrSt thiNg wE dId wAs tAkE nEoPrInT... sO cUtE sIa... hAhAs... dEn wE sEaT oUtsIdE tHe mAcDoNaLd... hAvEn'T rAiN yEt mAhS... dEn sUdDeNlY rAiN sO hEaVy... dEn wE wEnt tO tHe rOnAld mAcDoNaLd dErE lOhS... dEn sYaKir sLidE fOr fUn... dEn fIoNN wEnT tO sLiDe bUt feLL oN hEr bUtt... hAhaS... sO fUnNiEs sIa... bUt sHe aNgRy fOr aWhIlE lAhS... dEn sHe bAcK tO nOrMaL lIaO... dEn wEnT wAlkIn uNdEr tHe rAin tO chUrCh... pLay tAbLe sOcCeR wIt 3 bAlLs... fUn... wE cANNot shOut.. cAn cLaP... hAhAs... dEn wEnt bAcK hOmE... rAinING hEaViLy lYk hEll... but sTILL hAb tO gO hOmE... wEnt wAlK aT tHe sTaiRcAsE... sLiP aNd fELL bUt nVr fAll oN mY bUtt lAhS... mY othEr lEg sTaBlE... bUt gOt cUt... bLuE bLaCk... vErI pAiN sIa... nO fEeLiN... dEn gRanDpA wEnt fOr sUrgErY... (eYeS)... eEeeE vEri dIgUsTiNg.. hIs EyEs lAsT tYm vErI sMaLL wAn... bUt nOw sO bIg... eeeeeee.... vErI dIgUsTiNg!!!!

I rEaLLi cAnNot lEt mY eX gO... I wAn tO tEll hIm hOw I sTiLL fEeL aBoUt hIm.. but I dUnOe hOw... I jUs wAn tO sAy I rEaLLi sTiLL tRuSt yOu aNd rEaLLi sTiLL lOvE yOu... back to top?

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