Cold Nostalgia

Wednesday, May 23, 2007 @ 4:45 PM

today quite alot of things happened after school today ):

feeling very SADden inside . cried in school . and keith they all with some girls went barging into the class if i'm not wrong . didn't cared . was crying . then the girls were like asking why she cried and all the stuffs . keith was trying to ask me thingys . but i asked him to leave me alone . then i asked JQ to asked them to get out from the class . but something went wrong there . Yanting was asking them to move out of the class . but the girls got the wrong idea of hers and thought she was like shouting at her . i really felt BAD about this . when i heard them quarrelling , i cried more . was trying to hurt my knuckles . but couldn't JQ all stopped me . first time cried in secondary school ; was not crying for mummy but JieQi (:
then they were settling the thing in the girls' toilet . then settled liao then haoren and keith went quarrelling . caught MrYoong's attention . he came and scolded them . and don't know what cause was in the toilet . eyes were swollen and had to fake a smile to cover the swollen eyes . keith really is sad . can feel it . { keith , sorry to make you worry . I promise not to do it again . } first time i cried that bad and was trying to hurt myself . i didn't care about anything . just thinking of hurting myself . JQ all were trying to help me . true friends . touched (:
{ FIONA/JIEQI/YANTING } true friends (:
then after that went home after everything were settled . i felt that i am the cause of everything . if i did not cried , yanting would not have cried too . I'm sorry YanTing . my sincere apologies . sorry keith . sorry sorry sorry . i didn't mean to worry you guys . but i have been bottling up my feelings liao . too much i guess . will write another composition today liao . take care peeps . muahs !