Cold Nostalgia

Sunday, December 21, 2008 @ 8:11 PM

I wish everyone an early Merry Christmas?

hmm. Just talked to Weikeat kor.

He asked how i was, to be frank.

and i realised, i'm not fine/good at all.

okay, so firstly,

my friendship just hit the rocks *cries*

dear loves,

i don't know how we got into such a cold war.

i was so happy when Yanting asked if i cut my hair that day.

i was so happy when Charman cried on my shoulder when Cornets fell out that day.

i was so happy when Jieqi picked up my call that day for the performance at Esplanade.

i thought we were all back to normal.

but i guess not, we're still having this cold war.

You guys are still in my heart; I miss you guys):

secondly,

SYF's nearing, and in a few months' time, Jewel, Nic and Becky are passing out already D:

dear majors,

its been real tough, i know.

Becky: you just joined us, and you fitted with us perfectly(:
Jewel: you're the best major, i felt really touched when i got scolded by MsMa and you came over and stand by me. After scolding, you said "giatio wo lei. i thought what happen."

Nic: you're the strongest lah. getting scolded by Chew and you din cry but perservered.

Zhe-r Xi: you're always the one helping me, and the one always lending me a listening ear.

thank you dear Majors, it has really been a memorable time, serving the band as leaders together(: but good times always come to an ~~end~~): and i know, i'll really miss you, Becky, Nic and Jewel. I want you guys to pass out 的安心:D

Thirdly, i have to get myself mentally prepared for a challenging next year.

and the very last thing which is still bugging in me.

AbgHaziq

i just get reminded of you everytime i listen to the song 'Seribu Kenangan'

i din wanna leave you, but its like the times we used to spend is no longer the same.

i get confuse sometimes whether am i still your Adik or not when you're that close to her and that far from me. i get jealous too you know, maybe you just don't take notice.

sometimes, i really wish you were noticing me and how much i wish you could be that close to me like how you're that close to her. so i thought you're bias?

but that sms that early morning, i really don't get you.

AbgSaiful still love you as much as he used to. but i can't, i can't take you being bias from her and i. i do miss you, and i guess the feelings are still there for you? but what can i do? i can just only shut up and be happy for you. hais. there are a lot of things inside me about you. but i just don't know how to put them into words.. i'm really sorry, i love you.

and this post has got me feeling a lil better(: